Do you ever feel sometimes like you have to wear a helmet as a precaution because your brain is about to explode?
It's funny the different stages of life I've gone through the past few months. From living comfortably in my homeland of Colorado, to being uprooted and planted with so many opportunities in this new southern Cali lifestyle.
It's really put my brain in an overload, not in a stressful bad way, but a good growing and changing one. One of my favorite authors Oswald Chambers once said, "Change is a great opportunity for growth." It's funny because I feel myself growing and changing in ways that I never expected to happen. Maybe I always thought they would happen? But you know when you’re in that current place and time when things are happening and it catches you off guard? You almost don't feel quite prepared for it, or you want to hit the stop button and just take some time to process through everything that is going on.
I'm there.... that moment... that pause button in life.
I never actually take time to stop and think, let alone blog about my thoughts. Maybe cause I thought my brain would hit overload (tends to do that sometimes). That's where the helmet part comes in... you know so things don't get to messy. Or maybe it's because I, like so many other people these days, don't trust letting everything out and being vulnerable with other people. I don't trust exposing the true thoughts that are being protected behind my precautionary helmet. It's my security blanket, my comfort, my guard. But the bad thing about having that guard is yes it protects me but it doesn't let me live and learn. Stay with me here.....
Have you ever ridden a bike on a crisp cool evening down a quiet street lighted by the silhouettes of buzzing street lamps? If not you should try it, best time ever to ride a bike. To go as fast as you can into the shadowy darkness feeling the wind hug past your skin and flow through your hair as you coast by.... Life itself seems to be in a still pause....
When I'm in those moments my mind is at peace. I don't think about how the back tire of my bike could suddenly end up going over my head, or how a car could come blazing around the corner to greet me with a collision. And the last thing on my mind is how my mom always told me to wear a helmet. I don't think about all the possibilities of something unfortunate happening until it actually does. I guess it goes with the phrase you "live and learn."
Live and learn from the accidents that might happen, through the bumps and bruises, through the heartache and tough decisions that life brings you to.
Yeah I know it's some quirky thoughts but here I am sitting at work and all I want to do is go out and ride my bike. But with all seriousness I think this living and growing, ordeal that has been on my mind lately is something that goes hand in hand. Ok you ready for the tie in.....
Ok so you got Live and learn then Grow and Change. So, you can't grow unless you’re willing to change. Let alone accept the change. And you can't live unless you constantly are willing learn how to do it. Think about it…Sometimes you have to let your head explode, take off the helmet and confide in others to say this is who I am. An overloaded brain mess of emotions....
But once you take to the time to actually let people accept you, let yourself be vulnerable. I don't think there could be anything better. And maybe that's what I'm learning out here in Cali....That for once it’s ok to be myself…..and live a little with the helmet off for a bit….
